Sunday, August 24, 2008

hELO peeps i'm back BUT at a new bloggy~

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/justlina9

trying new space lol. might come back here if i didn't like them yea=X
no time for minors stuff like changing template will get them done after examss
so for time being visit this and comment when u feel like it lol

;2:38 PM

Sunday, July 13, 2008

i feel pathetic.

everyday withstand the nv stop, yelling.

and just why? wanting a family without squabbling everyday is so difficult.

everytime i tot that i was one step closer to them.

but i was wrong~

i felt like crying.

BUT

whenever the tears tends to fall

i hold back.

the disappoint. and never fulfiled wished

is just..

I'm not clever. I'm admit

I'm always the disappointment

i'm nothing

nothing compare to them

you nv listened.

and when have you?

i've tried not to talk back.

BUt

i was blame

being a scapegoat ain't the worst.

what's worst?

Is that you never understand how i feel.

BUT

you always say you know me.

Ha.

What a Joke.

What's do i hate the most?

What do i like?

What would i do when i feel really upset?

you never get it right.

you thought " i hate being discipline"

you thought " i like to play computer games"

you thought "everything be ok. nothing will affect me"

BUT

the fact

I don't like playing computers games

and the fact

that i want you to show that you care.

you nv did.

i hate being maligned

BUT

you still did

from

a girl who report 24hrs a day

to one

rebellious kid

you made a choice

i envy

i envy each and everyone.

everytime i just stare at how happy one can be.

i wished that happiness would be mine

it yet another day of squabble

and a day of envious

why does the jap families look so bonded.

i always wonder

;9:06 PM

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Results are out.=( and i know i didn't work hard for it.
everyday is another excuse for me to exempt myself for study.
what i have been doing or what i haven't been doing.
i really didn't know.

Data Network & Communication B
MicroProcessor Technology C
Cost ACcounting A
Mathematics D
Industry Electronics & Control F

Communication Skill Presentation A-

I got an F and i have to buck up and stop the slagging and my indec too.
okiex sure i did last minutes study.
i just can't get my brain workinggg or any self discipline to study on my own.

and with the Grade Point Average: 2.435 since last sem.
i get no where.=/ NO WHERE!~ so unlike AA students
jeez they already plan ahead~
we are like kena thrown way so far behind.

AH and so they spread our class got a genius
Why?? let's recap the scenerio again.
FLASH~

Mr.Patrick [indec lect] : Your class only one A* students
[recap A* meaning top15% of the whole cohord]
lect walking toward jiaxin. pulling out his hand congrates her
Mr.Patrick: and She is the only girl that score FULL mark for the paper.
hellOo FULL marks! he emphasis that.

OMG i sure needa some help from her=X
lOlx. and she jump yr 1 and admitted str8 to our class.
str8 distinction student. wEllo.~

ah and thk to matthew paper. kena spread around.
last minute read his micro P answer sheet so i was able to answer most of the questions.
haha i think he himself duno how his paper got spread around!~

NOw NOW it's gonna be another time for me to complaint.~
some of our lect. sometimes really is Sh*t

first lets talk about our comm skill lect.
everytime give our class people counselling for some stupid reasons.
and yesh the words he use something is a harsh.
His CRITICs for our presentation is like personal attack. [ i mean like ]
and he is too STRICT. that there is no As in the class. Only 4miserable A-
and yes he tell us off by saying PLS ASK INTELLIGIENT QUESTIONS.
[ the looks he give and the way he says it is like we are in the wrong.]
hEllO a QUESTIONs is ask what u are UNSURE about SOMETHING and u want to FIND OUT.
FANCY this words came out from a LECTURER and one who teach
SKILLs to IMPROVE one communication!~ i think his communication got ALOT of PRObs.
it REALLY makes me PISS OFF!~
and i have all !@#%$ that just came out of me after his lesson finished.
my effort wasted saying that no!@#% words to be said.

2nd our pem
OUR PEM seems like MIA.
We haven't seen him for like URGh zillion days.
yea we ONLY saw HIM ONCE.
oh when was it? the FIRST ORIENTATION.
worse still when we got some PROBs needa contact HIM.
EERgh UNAVAILABLE. and
yes from what we heard from other mates who was taught by him.
he is ALWAYS half an hour LATE for his tutorial.
BUt LECt he was nv LATE COS the LECT NEEDA SCAN THEIR CARD.
Eek WHAT kind of world is this.
OH and not to mention when HE SAW US.
I DIDN'T EVEN NOES WE ARE HIS PEM GROUPS!~

urghhh i'm going CRAZY.~ n needa get a kick in the ass.
push myself harder and harder.
i'm reall listless in doing ANY STUFF.
hAix. and i didn't like NYp that much.=( even more after THESE

no cheerios cos it's dissappointing
no toodles cos there is nth fun
no goodles cos I'm noT UNhaPPy with thing as it is.

am just so dead~

;7:29 PM

Saturday, July 5, 2008

finally receive the picture yea hip hp hurray.

Morita=) woo he and harada going back japan.

u noe who will miss them.

oh no is miss him haha+X

haha everyone need a pretty teacher for a change=)

Harada ~ captainn

someone say he looks like LEE JUN KI [korean actor of my girl]

and as usual joyce and stella in the picc!~ they are lively as ever hehex

WOoo. and here is yasojima tatsu [ the pretty boy]

looks even prettier upfront.

ahh sad my pic is ugly so post this pic instead

SEE is sooo NICee.

eh liying i jealous liao lar~

oh and a lil intro.

he is 15 and is 2nd DAN!~ OMG

;1:04 AM

Friday, July 4, 2008

OMG!~ it's the SINGFEST!

singapore music event of the year.

18 bands 20 hr of live music!!~ and split into two day 2Aug & 3Aug

SAT line up

SUN lin up

there there SIMPLE PLAN is bACK!~

it's been so long when they disappear and NOW back with top hits.

YOUR LOVE IS A LIE

i miss the concert two/three years back when norman they went for it.
JeEx they say it's wiLD!~ envyyyy

aww~ and jason mraz really love his song!!~
*geek in pink* *remedy* *i'm yours*

i like his unique voice and the way he sings.
and he's no fake when he play acoustic he still sounds gdddd
BUT the tiCz ARE SO EX!~ and two days diff band/artist =(
CHeck it OUt!

NOws here update of songs CHARTed!~
4 minutes - Madonna and Justin.Tim

2 week charted in singapore top music no.1
Always be My Baby - David Cook version
which is my fav song=)

This week 98.7fm singapore charted no.2
which is another of my favourite song too
fall for you by secondhand serenade

well this top 2 are closeee in the chart.=)my favvs

;11:06 PM

Saturday, June 28, 2008

projects projects and lot of project.
4 crazy ppl went to sentosa=X
i'm too tired to join and yes i'm not crazy hAHah.
join them for dinner. well i didn't like the what padang or something food.
we ate like a pauper=x food was "EXTREMELY GD"
we had 5 miserably potion food share among 6.
and service totally sucks.
we waited for twenty minutes before someone take us to the seats.
i had ate one CREAM PUUFF before that. yUMm dat is called heaven.

after waikay is back i had my second round. pork chop noodle.
because as i say the food is miserably portion!~
taste alright. i like the noodle though but not the chop.
HA and what chop is that WK.
not chicken chop lOlx=X

journey home was long way down the road.
and we talk the whole journey back. waseda is our topicc of the day.
and i'm not gonna miss the this year's SEIRANSAI!~ heheh

;11:50 PM

Friday, June 27, 2008

eEEW. it is complete bad luck or whatever.
thanks for being such a smart ass. a.k.a gei khiang
if not for that i would scald myself.
JEez.~ today's shiai was indeed incredible=)
esp during the sudden death.
waikay and harada!~
wow and gabriel's match too is sooo intense lol
as though like a real shiai.
and after match over. everyone is smiling happily.
esp. gab nasu and morita
shhh and suresh smirk when wai kay got the DO point.

3match in total and left only half an hour to keiko=/
harada's and morita's queue are somewhat longer.
and most importantly
i didn't get the chance to keiko with any of the japanese.
sad as it's a rare chance~ i queue damn long and some idiot cut my queue.
when i didn't see and not cj.
some other ppl instead!~ and i guess they don't even know who they are.
eh keiko so many ppl den cut ppl queue WTH!~ shld let us have the chance.
at least once. me and one/two senior didn't get the chance to keiko once.
ahya everything is such a pity.=( whatever.

well had supper with japanese boys/girls
erm AWKWARD . uber awkward
no common topic and i think hard to communicate.?

haha took picture with the pretty boy!~
he is super pretty larr.美男子
and he lives near our area. went hm together
and i think we girls scare him. loL
we ask so many questions.~ we are so kaypo.
ok in a nicer way. curious=)
onamae wa? yashoshima tatsu? i think so. or yashojima tatsu 八十岛~
Ha and i just rem calling him 六十岛 when i was telling liying who i queueing for.
omg.~ mistaken people's name.

p.s i love his folded jeans. it's so nice.~
i tried folding it b4 but failed to look nice lol. because my jeans are a lil baggy
it same as dennise. but his is better=X
ans what is it call. YEA the pinroll jeans

;11:48 PM

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Hear the song life goes on.?
yea it makes sense. whatever we doing/ wherever we are.
LIFE STILL GOES ON.~

CT is coming to the end.WOOo at least a relief. after tml paper.
i'll be left with one more to go=(
Gotta Chiong Lotx of PROJ.!~

first of all. Needa get a part time JOb to cover me expenses.why?
1. prepare funds before i sign up for driving.
2. yea i want a room makeover. SUPER UBER messy room have to GO!~
3. to cover for my shopcoholic FEV.
4. save expenses for overseas trip=)

mann that's alot alot..
been missing in action for kendo=X EEPs
though there's adv and disadv.=P
adv. i'm more斯文 now lol no japalang language u noe the !@#$%
disadv. everything i have done gone down the drainny~

alright cut the crap.gotta mug now=(

;1:02 AM

Friday, June 13, 2008

今天的我学到了很多。是一些我们不曾体会过的。
人生并不像我们所想象的那么简单。
命运总是让人捉摸不着。

想象同一天~ 在同一个地点却发生了不同事
真令人难过。

remember the day of my lil bro's passing out.
it the same day a NS- men pass away~
i didn't know till i saw it on news.
and one day after another happen.
grieve

after seeing the news.
we wonder is life more important or~
i mean they could save a life. the time. the everything is important
the decision they made.
they could have sent the NS men in distress to nearest hospital to get treated faster.
instead general hospital.~
who could predict the difference of timing.~ the decision ~ the everthing
maybe if he were sent in earlier. he might not.

haix

人总是只为自己想不曾估计到别人
为什么人总是那么的自私。

;12:55 AM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

hey hey everyone!~

wee i got my first THE CLICK FIVE album
Modern minds and pastimes tour edition. YES!~ finally
i simply love the click five. even before or after. just that i didn't get their albums!~
no matter who is the lead singer, eric dill or kyle patrick. i LUV them BOtH=)

AHhh they got DVD showing the performance at MOS the year before!~=(
and six bonus tracks. well and three of them are new songs that i've never heard before+)

alrighty i'll stop being so excited about click five for the time being lol.
todays been boredom. i just can't seems to get my concentration on studying. wth
went to my aunt house and this is the first time i pack food for my liL brO.
i mean you know after such lonng timee. that he completely ignore me.=(
sometimes i wonder did i do anything wrong or what.
it just happen so sudden that my bro has change.
he smoke now and keep the mohawk hair style etc etc.

BUT yea he now changing back and i can sense it.
apparently i think it's because we are now much closer than in 2 years back.
haiz~ nvm bout it. yawn~

toodles will update the photo taken=)

p.s i was wondering the purpose of camera.=X
u'll know why i thought this way soon when you've learn about something else=P

;12:40 AM

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

WellO!~ which make from the word well n hello.
erhem. well room was packed. such a messy dump.
now finally much neater in a sense. stay up late the night before.
went for my lil BRo BMT passing out.

well we basically had to take a boat to tekong.
first time riding them kinda dizzy. not sure if i'm seasick?
HAha. on the way saw this interestesing island.
the whole area is mostly covered sand.and there two turtle shape forest.
a big one and small one. separated.
SEE the nature wonder.

oright back to topic. the opening start with the 2nd runner up drill squad.
performing the drill and then follow by the champion. HA i think the champion squad is great lol. they actually add some effect to make us laugh.
follow by the marching in of all company.
and my mum mistook the one in the firsr corner first row as my BROo.

mum : neeh you see the first one is didi. he say he is at the corner lar
me: he doesn't look like dex!~
mum: ahya u later u see sure is him.
[my aunt keep taking picture of that corner cos my mum was so sure that he was my bro]
lmaos.
marching past.
me: u see!~ eh that first row from left the no.5 look like dex leh.~

after that yea i was right about that. lol it kinda far to see who is who. but i was right.!~
haha. and the ceremony for the parents to put on the jockey cap for them.
and LiL brO was the first one to put on the cap. LOl=x
y? the moment the announcement over my aunt was the first one to chionggg and put them on for him. HahA. potraying the kiasu singaporean spirit.!~
took picturee ha and this is first picture i ever had with my bro afterrrr so many yearss later.
it's awkward though. cos he seldom want to talk to me.
after that they had this cheer to end the parade.

when the parade ended we went for dinner at the little red house小红楼. at east coast
we had seafood crabb!~ gyaaa alottt of fooodd.YUmm
hm sweet hm. i was incredibly exhausted.=(

;11:21 PM

Ahh. i can't helpbut feel excited that the JAP boys is joining our training.
Jeez they are damn cute.
ok the training is two friday's away. aww~ still way long.
wow i really like them play. they way the fight.
and the ashi.~ if i could move lke them that will be sooo gd.

i like morita's bow. it really is like japanese. as compare to morioka=X
haha ahYYA i shld stop day dreaming.=(
if i could brush up my jap. i'm stopping half way through.
half bucket water.HAha SADDD. got money than carry out with my classes behh.

;2:24 AM

Sunday, June 8, 2008

today is a wild day. well there is sure a damn scary ride.
sort of like the roller coaster=. the slide is damn steep.
whatever the foam area was alright. i like the ula thingy.
though alot of things didn't try. well it's sunday family day.
ya and we shld stick to original dates cos less people no = no queue.
we chose today so many people would come but mostly kena fly aeroplane.
whatever~ we still enjoy ourselves. it's freaking cold though.
and now i'm sick!~ mild fever.
kena ban from going out even for dinner. because my mum wants me to reat at hm.-.-

issues!!~
i hate people who open their legs so big as if they own the place.
a*s peepx they always opened their leg so big and occupy the other people seats.
wtH i hate them and i swear the next time if someone ever cross over me.
i will tell them off directly!~ i have meet 2 ppl of this. can't they spare a thought for others!~
don't you agree with me.

;9:05 PM

there is a scene in made of honour that keep replaying in my head.
that guy told his mate that he didn't want to seems desperate hence he would only call the lady only after 24hrs when he had his number.
and that keep reminding me of someone.
jeez is he playing the same field? or is it just show. Or.. whatever.
sometimes i just think i could be blind. or there is something wrong me.
i felt like a foOL. like a fool.

n today as it is. i felt tired.went out shopping with keeto.
OMg i haven't seen him for way LOong. like his dressing now.
oo met at plaza sing. guess why.
cause he want to buy blackk towel.-.- and he have been looking for it very looong.
why black? to match his bedsheet.
he is gonna move house soon. oh and i saw daryl
and the funny thing is daryl ask whether keet. is my boyfriend lol.
way too absurd.

oo and the part that there is a stranger looking at us. Why?
because we are walking in our own way. LOl one go left one go right.
and whenever we meet up. our conversation always start with~ so any cute boys?
BUt normally i don't believe his taste=X whatever
i guess i'll stop here. ahh i'm in bad mood now=/

p.s sorry keet. didn't acc u to vivo.=P i'm too tired and sorry for being late today=/

;1:16 AM

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

My luck's down today.gRr
Played Monopoly in School. AhH i keep getting fines or pay bills

incredibly boring day. we only had two lesson and in between 3 hrs break!~

CT is getting nearer. i haven't got a clue where i'm currently at=x

JEez i'm broke. from all the online shoOoping. lolx

here is my wishlist=)

import this cute lil jap kid to me lol=x

yixin u are so luckyy~

to be able to go the next THE CLICK FIVE concert!~

lastly i want to TOUR!~

;6:57 PM

well most part are quite true!!~

ARIES WOMAN

She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal
frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and
often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real,
so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. She
think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for
herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.

If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This
seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly
will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight
tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or
mixture of character.

Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She
thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize
everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle
them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people
that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in
crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing,
nothing will stop her.

Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another
woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty
dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek.
She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold
and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she
choose you, she will need to be proud of you.

'Love' is not as important to her as 'Marriage'. Her real goal in life is
'Safety' and her position in other people sight need to be 'Secure'. She
plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also
very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance
because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love,but do not
want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love.

She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come
from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth
anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even
when she is not. She like to make people see her as 'secure and confident'
even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you can
tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time.

You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some
spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a
'Volunteer' for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely
be a president or a V.P. of a 'Club'. She is a romantic and artistic, but
being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful
imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan.

A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high
point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will
not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now.
Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure.

If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn,
but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,but in fact
she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.

;12:30 AM

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

well i perceive now that i only wanted keep the good thing here.
INSTEAD of that.~
Growl!~ Jeez i feel like going to wild wild wet.
i duno why.=x nv been to wild wild wet.
sounds fun.

AHhh anyone wants to go.
ohh and the new class blog
http://ec0705.blogspot.com/

ahh my tagboard is BACK!~ do tagg=)

;10:37 PM

Sunday, May 25, 2008

GYAaa!~ shopping shopping and more shopping~
well it's GREAT SINGAPORE SALES.
eh nothing much to be excited actually lol.

today is awesome=) lOl full of hilarious stuff to share.
went out with alwin.
wanted to eat芒果冰but end up too full eat.
nvm there is always next time!~

first we had out lunch at some sort of tomato related restaurant?
i mean does it count as restaurant. well thats not important anyway
he ordered half chicken while i had steak with spaghetti.
jeez it's not your day=X alWiiN.
he spend a LONG time eating his chicken
and needed my help to help him CUT.
AWww.~ he still a lil boy needed to be taken care of.=P

well after lunch we shop around and headed to wisma.
alwin: eh go somewhere drink coffee.
me: ok after i have shop here.
alwin: okok
me: okie let's go starbucks BUT i think i needa go toilet x2
alwin: AHya!~ the coffee there got sell toilet.

LMAOs. i had a gdd laugh indeed.
i'm completely broke that day. JEez online shopping lar etc.
bought lotx of stuff. think i need a wardobe clean up lol.
sell the stuff that i never worn before=X
cheerios.
ShHh i shall keep the talk in subway to myself.
LOL it's not suitable for hearing while eating.=P

LOOK AT OLDER POST SOMETHING INTERESTING+P

;10:13 PM

Saturday, May 24, 2008

EH hey. omg getting excited over what!~?
whatever. i wonder did i recognise him.
oh yea the model.~lol
but i still think he look better in person.
than on magazine=)
cheerios lol. kinda brighten my day=P

;11:48 PM

Monday, May 19, 2008

Kendo 14 East West Tournament.

it's another eye opening tournament.
regardless the result the outcome. we gain. we lose.
we've experience even more. it truely fufilling.
i guess we have to work even harder for next tourny.

well all i could say was that i wasn't gd enough.
hadn't seen josh for longgg time~ yea and it's kinda back like the gd old days
lol just missing something a lil=.

manda's teeam was superb. with the japanese sensei. OMG!~
NASU, JASMINE and the CURLY hair jap kid Lol.
SEE the wonders of the team.

kendokas

hungry us

fooling around

;4:27 PM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

it's night class again.~
today didn't went back to kendo even after night class.
SUPER TIRED!~ didn't sleep the night before.
i'm super shag. whatever

half the class went to eat BOTAK JONES during the 2hrs break.
sad it's not halal.adi and khai wasted trip for them.

the paper menu

BUT yea lucky they've got others.
and blur tianxiang order 5 plates of cajun chicken. 1 blackpepper. 1 fish & chip
when there is only 6 peepx.

Gyaa My CAJUN CHICKEN

food was not bad. it looks as though portion small.
BUT it's filling enough.

some interesting stuff we found when we browse through the menu.
here's what you are aniticipating

WORDS WOMEN USED
1. FINE - This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to SHUT UP.

2. FIVE MINUTES
This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so it’s an even trade.

3. NOTHING - This is the calm before the storm. This means something and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. 'Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with 'Fine'

4.Go Ahead - At some point in the near future, you are going to be in some mighty big trouble.

5.Go Ahead (With Raised Eyebrows) - This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine".

6.Go Ahead (Neutral Expression) - This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care" You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes, followed by "Nothing" and "Fine" and she will talk to you in about "Five Minutes" when she cools off.

7.Loud Sigh - This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

8.Soft Sigh - Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. "Soft Sighs" mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

9.That's Okay - This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow.

10.Please Do - This is not a statement, it is an offer. A woman is giving you the chance to come up with whatever excuse or reason you have for doing whatever it is that you have done. You have a fair chance with the truth, so be careful and you shouldn't get a "That's Okay"

11.Thanks - A woman is thanking you. Do not faint. Just say you're welcome.

12.Thanks A Lot - This is much different from "Thanks." A woman will say, "Thanks A Lot" when she is really ticked off at you. It signifies that you have offended her in some callous way, and will be followed by the "Loud Sigh." Be careful not to ask what is wrong after the "Loud Sigh," as she will only tell you "Nothing"

the geeks at work

;1:52 AM

Monday, May 12, 2008

hA!~ i'm gonna give click five concert a miss.~
why? i got no ticx!~even IF i do who will i go with
hELL knows. most of my friends don't listen to the genre i do.
even if they are they are not a fan of click five.
yea~ whatever unless u r talkng about maroon 5.
well that would be arthur.
BUT i feel i duno him. at all. someone who went missing in action.
and then come popping out.
hmm i guess he is too much attention to the girls.

well i don't think i would have given a hack care of him any more.
so BLESS me.~
ARGh. i have wasted my weekend at hm.
lazing around. i feel like complete fool.
i should have spend them wisely and then i wouldn't have regret not.
yeayea and unlike people who are basically busy dating and have no time for their friends.
it's kinda sad.~

everyone is just the same.
who knows when i'm dating i might be like them.
argh room still messy like a rubbish dump.
gotta pack. haix couldn't get to sleep. night class tml=(

;5:35 AM

Thursday, May 8, 2008

alright alRight. i admit!~
i just had to admit that sometimes i'm senile.
JEez first 4 getting where i put the glove when i was at work.
and than fancy ERASE the name of my classmates if 2 yrs.
i seriously have no idea what's his name.
OMG it's getting worse. i need a doctor. do i?
well what else did i 4get. i guess i'm not too sure.
i'm might even 4get that i have a BLOG.

today i have met a few people of which i haven't seen them for ages.
and yea one of them also completerly 4got who i am.
BUT no worries i'm the same in fact.
i don't blame because my look change=X HAHa
wANg JiE now style his hair!~it muCH nicer than his OLLdd image.+)
afterall everyone is like changing and getting better.
yea it's a great news afterall.

aHYAy i'm like having the urge to play tennis & bball=(
who's free anyway. i better get to bed earlier lesson tml morning.
ciaoz. maybe a gd news in the morning will be great.
ahh i'm going army market tml.

lazy bum dead~

;1:08 AM

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

hey~ woah my new found love. movies!~
i guess i got the virus from khim and his group of friends.
jeez just counting for saturdays till now i've gone to the cinema twice.
before was iron man. and today OVER HER DEAD BODY.
don't get me wrong. lol it's the movie title.
aint it weird. hmm some parts of the movie is hilarious
BUT i wouldn't say it's fantastic =/

upcoming more movies that are nice.
-what happen in vegas
-get smart !~ [a must watch]
-you don't mess with the zohan
-made of honour

well i plan to watch this. ha anyone wants to watch update mi=)
okie thats still longgg wayy

;12:56 AM

Sunday, May 4, 2008

damn~ i super bored.
i'm stuck at hm for the whole. simply slacking. GEEz
and i've posted three post just today!~

i'm hating to use imeem. it really is sh*t
alot of problems. yea and now i change to another webby.!~
and u could dl song the rest of the people upload.
it's damn gd=) here

ahhh i'm gona start training for my stamina back sobX=(
i want to join the run!~ =)
and i hope to get my license soon. whether bike or car i'm not sure.
still deciding~ i'm being typical here.
COS bike is cheaper=X
BUT i hope to get car la. LOL

ahyay whatever.~
counting down to the click five concert.
28 more days. AHhhh ticx

OOh not to 4get i dl the lastest song from GOKUSEN 3=)
here listen

miura haruma. kawaii deso neh.

;8:39 PM

HAVE u guys seen a vending machine for cosmetics!?~
take a look at this!

lol it's interesting article i found posted on the net.
now now in Japan you can find all sorts of things for sale in vending machines. n it's now coming up at hongkong.
when will this come to singapore? nAhz i don't think singaporean would buy make up from vending.
COS they all KIASI.
the typical 2 things singaporean scare of.
KIASU
KIASI
haiyo~

;4:38 AM

woah la~ went army market today to search for the trolley bag. liying was using.
yea and i think it's great and the colour they have is not bad.
bought some stuff that wasn't what we plan to buy.
OOoo and we went to eat chocolate fondue at golden mile.
it wasn't as great as what we think=(

AHH and we went to this toy factory outlet that sells toys at almost half the PRICE$$.
reminisce of the times when we were all young.
from beach rd. we travel to kampong glam area and to haji lane.
bought a bag[haji lane] & a pair of sandal from bugis.
apparently saw one nice tees at collage but i didn't get it.
i'm so gonna be broke. even before i take my pay.

we've found one nice place to chill eat fries.
it's kinda homely muslim type of place. it's call muso? mosi?
aRh MOSI cafe. lol
alot of nice place we've discover. like some sort of art gallery.
unique pieces of stencil paint up. and the malay guy taught us how to make the paints.
yea and we even say the person in the stencil painting look gd.
HA and he immediately change his face lol.

went to meet khim and his friends for a movie.
manda and vi happens to be there too.=)
oo and the shoes that jerry bought was nice. i like the red one esp.
OMg i think i'm like kena their virus" lol
i feel like buying the red ones=X esp since i have been looking for red and white shoes!~

=( broke broke~ and now i'm thinking whether to buy the trolley bag.

hanging out with khim's friend was weird at first.
i dunch know all of them except for like two dennise and jerry.
BUT after you've got to known them. yea~ it kinda alright lar. they quite friendly.
you get to learn alot from them. about their fashion. etc
it was quite interesting. lOL.

it was even funnier when we were taking pictures at taka.
it looks as though we want to do something illegal in the front counter.

finally some pictures after all this blogging of wordy stuff.
and yea there got to be more picture coming up. like the stencil part=)

iron man was quite nice=) it's one of the show i wldn't watch.
BUT i did not regret watching them.~
you guys shld watch it. yea a gd recommendation!~
i shall get to sleep soon.

ciaozz

;3:55 AM

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Well well. it's been days since i blog.
woW~ and within days. my class seems to be love by the CUPID.
though there are still some lonely us left behind.
WELL single is the best.~ nth to worry.
CAREFREE.

aRhA!~ well i went clubbing yesterday with liying.
to MOS it's RETRO night.~ yea i simply love reminisce!~
quEnE was lONG=( i didn't really enjoyed myself.=x
i missed the times i went with jacelyn and rest~
they are so much mORe FUN=)
well new experienced since all the ppl i dunch really know-.-
so as for liying.

OMG!~ this the first time alot of things happen.
1st got some psycho freaks shouting at us. like he wanted fight.
yea and i guess he was really really drunk.
2nd we see something we shld not have seen. it really digusted ME.
oMG pls clear away scene it so EEK.
3rd after that incident we tot that the person was outside the toilet and we
freakked out. lol but HENG it was not.

indeed an unlucky day. is it a sign.? omg i hope it's not.

went hm early and today i'm just wasting my time slacking at hm.
AHHH it's hols man. hOW CLd i =|

the Click Five COncert is ON 1 JUNe.
ahH how i wished i've got the tiCkets.
WEll.~ BE realistic giRL.

training's tml. ahh i'm so lazyy right now=(

;7:45 PM

Friday, April 25, 2008

one word that i would use to describe school would be tiring instead of FUn.
=. i'm not enjoying myself in that course.
and i find myself struggling~
sometimes no matter how hard u try u would still be at the same place.
there is nothing you could do to change.
i've lost to fate. even before i face it.

training as usual for today.
i totally feel unwell before i even start.
lotx of people came for the orientation.
BUT who knows the number might be lesser the next time.
=/ whatever. if they got the heart and will they will stay.
haix~

alina

;7:49 PM

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Glen's BAnd was GReAT!~ absolutely.
definitely the one i like most among the rest of the bands.
finally we think that the $12 bucks is worth something.
lOlx. other than the noise of screamings. n bLARH~
OH and i like the other band that sing tnt!~
the vocalist got the same hair style as joey zehr.

oMG i'm going crazy this few days~
wasn't feeling GD. not as in i'm sick.
i mean my mood.=( ate sakae with the senior.
really thank them to made an effort to buy me a cake and sing bdade song to me.
i'm blush though. and glen fancy calling my name out at his gig.
i'm sorry that i spoil the mood. BUt i didn't want it.

oh yea and thkx khim, manduck, vivien, AH wIN LOL, & mk for giving me the headphone lol. esp khim who knw i wanted to buy that headphone long ago just that i didn't made up my mind.

i'm so sick now. as in really sick.
i need cure.

;11:45 PM

Happy Birthday to me.
Happy birthday to me..
Happy Birthday to me...
=/

;11:26 PM

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

SPECIAL A

it's a very nce manga=) and now they have it in anime~
Ha i have until Book 9. BUT i'm more interested in anime.

here's ep 1

part 1/3

part 2/3

part 3/3

;7:59 PM

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

whatever it is we are back from break and back to school.
training study lecture. all begins~
no time to slack no time to do whatever shit

first time having night class. and it wasn't fun.
the lesson is like HUh. a whole BLUR shit.
i had to buck up. yea~

today went out with my so call "jie"
she is my mum friend's daughter. haven't seen her for a long time.
discuss about lotx of stuff. and what about the j*Rk !@#$%
they are such an a*s~ i shall be more~ erhem.

yea went to shop around. saw my junior, kailin
jeez bian "shuai" le eH hAHa.
she got gd complexion. she's a pretty girl dress like boi
yea u know complications~

eat aloot of stuff. with huiyi
Ja Jiang Mian. fried dumpling. pan fried mango egg crepe with porkfloss. and CHua Bin.!
all taiwan xiao chi!~ ichiban!~ esp mango egg crepe with porkfloss. and the mixed fruit chua bin
wah thinking about makes me drool again.
talking about food!~
ARRr i'm such a BIG eater!~ my friend and I total ate 4 plates of rice for dinner yesterday!~
i had japanese food while she had beef noodle and we share two more plates of sichuan pan fried meat rice. and a bowl of ice kachang.~
BUT we are still not FULL.
it not really nice to eat sO FULL so we decided to stop there lOl.
i think i could have eaten more. jeez.
needa cut down on the portion of food i'm eaten

bon appetit!~ HAha

;8:15 PM

Sunday, April 13, 2008

hipPE!~ today was my last day of work at g-star.
yea it seems like woo fREE!~

i was like the runner for today.
ARGH~ can't they just give me a rest for today!~
made me run from paragon to wisma. wisma to tang. tangs to paragon and back to wisma
wTH.~

yea but also my fault since i interpret the msg wrongly.

Me: eh later weide go back wisma call.
Wagner: weide back call who?

YES!~ datx it i tot weide was back that why he ask call who.
BLUR mE. and i went to paragon.~

Michelle: Eh? How come you are here?
Me: i tot u say weide back at wisma i have to come back.?
Michelle: Weide is here what.
Me: whEre?
Michelle: toilet.
Me: HUh wagner say weide at wisma.
Michelle: HE saw ghost ar.

[weide walk in.]

DOtx!~ i had to go back to wisma.
it's a OOo LOng day.

;11:00 PM

Saturday, April 12, 2008

it may not be the best place to work in. it may be the worst.
some people are just FUNn there=)
last day of my work would be 13 april it's like a mass job hop. everyone is quitting at the same period~

JEez today was working at wisma with wagner.
HA.~ it's like doing nth.=X jeez eat snake
wagner got quite alot of beating from me.
JEez i'm sure rough.~

haiix it almost 2 days to last. and i'm stuck working at wisma!~ OMGg.
whatever. got to enjoy myselfff wahHAha

Ahhh~ i duno whether i want to get the jeans.
BUT sure i do if i've got like staff discount. it's EX
ok to me lar. i'm aiming for a ankle boots BUT i haven't saw any~
online shopping is still much better for lazy bUMz like me.
HaiZ. how i wish i know the size of foreign country SO i could order in my booty.~
=( BUT i jusst cannnt

CRAPp

;12:30 AM

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

it wasn't as fun as what i would think.
first day was dry. all i had to do was to bring them around the campus. ETC etc.
whaever it was really really dry.
games was interesting.=) the class i'm taking started interacting only during the games period.
hA i think i was the forceeful type of OGLs.
GLen is the soft oNe.=/

think julyha's group was super FUN.
HA they really played very ENTHU!~ WOOo

today i have got my golden keys.
it's seems just like a blink of eye. and POof
in the lunar calender i'm 21 years old.

haix~

;10:01 PM

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

hey peepx.
it's been a loong daay. today i had OGL rehearsal.
it's tiring and it really sucks because we are force to sit and there and watch the performance for like two times.

went for training. i didn't feel that i have put in much effort.
it's like for the sake of the sake.
well let's hope tml Orientation goes well.
Right. partner glen.
haha am i lucky or what.~
but i somehow feel maybe it's a blessing after the mess.

cheerios
alina

;12:15 AM

Thursday, April 3, 2008

somehow today work load is a percentage of 0.
wisma isetan g-star. is so emptyy~ unlike paragon
i can even rem the faces of the peeps who step into our store.
JEez incredibly empty. nth much to do.
SO i had to pack the whole lotx of jeans!=/
it freezing inside the store. u can turn a hot milo into milo BING.

hA!~ and realise i've got gd memory.
i tot i saaw josh besties? tot might have recognise someone familiar and got the wrong person.
BUT nope i was right=)

=( tml i got lotx of stuff to do.
DEntaL. COllEct PAy. SHOp. and watch training instead of training.
i think i'm lazy or i needa slowly pick up my shinai again.
HAix training training~

i lost my ez link. which bloodyy * stole mine.=/
i had to get replacement and the fees cost me $18 bucks
ARRrr thats about 4 hrs of my pay!~SOb.

guess i'll stop here adios everyone

;11:51 PM

ArGh it's another morning and i'm getting back to original routine.
eat , work , sleep
i hate it i hate it. after this short break. i' gona
eat study sleep. AGAIN.=/
WHyy?!
Jeez haven't really enjoy myself in this hols.
it's training work and schoool stuff to fred.
yEa and after YKT i haven't been down to one training.
i needa breakk frm my lame job.
yea and i'm gonna~ take aaaa long break
ok it's a short one HEhe.

ciaoz i gotta work=(

oh yea everyone let's get down to glen up coming gig together=)
it on 19 april at arts house chamber. tics at $12

[glen u gotta thk me hahah=X i'm kidding]
CHEeRs

;9:32 AM

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

HEy guys tot i'm super bored.
saw this and did this. get to me know EH. HA WTH

Who was the last person to put their arm around you?
ALiSOn.=)

Do you still talk to the person you kissed last?
erm. i didn't have any last kiss . HA

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
Oh. Alex that model. =X

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night. i'm a drama freak

Are you there for your friends?
YEa. i do offer a listen ear. and comfy shoulders.
jeez i'm like a guy~

Are you a forgiving person?
YEa, but i'm kinda petty.=/ and i wanted to know what the problems.

Do you drink every weekend?
nah nope. don't really like drinking though i have alot at hm.

Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
Nope. i won't be doing this unless i'm bored right. am i ?

What do you want right now?
i want to get my room packed. but i'm too lazy

What are you listening to right now?
my blog song. heavenly days by yui.=)

The highlight of your week?
work work n more work

Last time you saw the person you like?
does it count the previous ones? currently no. so NO.

Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
WEide asking about my schedule.

What will you do after this?
sleep. or probably eat.
zZ

Has anyone ever said you looked like a celeb?
Er. YEa RUi En. BUt i'd think they spoil the image of my iDOL=(

Name someone with the same b-day as you?
YEa some freaking ARTIST. but i cant rem.
BUT suprising. those idol i like are of the same birth months as me..
ALMOST ALL. that what i notice. freaky

What are your plans for tonight?
nth.

Where are your top 3 right now?
hmm. travel study play=) ?

What are you wearing right now?
tees and shorts.

When's the last piercing you got?
er it's centuries ago

What's the closest thing to you that's black?
life. it's so unpredictable and blur.~ and seems like there is still an unknown stories behind right for u to find out

What would you do if someone told you they were in love with you?
erm do they know how heavy is the word love. i don't know really.

What were you doing two hours ago?
watching some videos. online shopping

Do you want to be married right now?
hmm. i keep thinking i'll become an old maid one day.
cause i'm still single and i'm twenty DUHh.
there is still long way to go uHUh

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
in my zZ land

What do you usually do first in the morning?
open my eyes.?

Anything bothering you right now?
i wonder why did god like to kid me.

What were you doing yesterday?
the same old daily routine. i'm boreddd=(

What time is it now?
1953

How many different beverages have you had today?
sprite. and does it count what i'm gona drink later?
ha it would be tea.

Any plans for Friday night?
sHOPping?. NO training? i'm not sure=/

Do you smile often?
it really depend on the mood and who i'm with.

What will you be doing in 5 hours?
snuggle in my bed

You're in the hospital, who on your TOP friends comes to visit you?
i've got no idea.

If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
that will be great.

Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you off?
drunk. they always think that they can take more than the limits.
and end up having people to clear their mess. JeEz

Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you on?
Charisma=)

Do people underestimate you?
i guess it depend how one sees.

What do you hope to have accomplished by the end of the year?
travel with my buddy. get a gd grades

Are you on msn?
Yes.

Anybody annoying you right now?
nAh

Is your birthday on a holiday?
Hmm NO. BUt it's on a weekend=/

What is your current relationship status?
single all along..

What sort of people do you like, as far as what their interests are in life?
crappy. jovial kind of peepx.+)

What traits turn you off?
not exactly traits. but a smoker esp.

Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
I duno really. and up till now i've only went on one date. i mean what i called dates.

Are you afraid to ask people out on dates?
it depends. i mean if ur dates means with the one u like . yea for me.
BUT for friends nope.

What are the positive points about being single?
hmm. no relationship problems. probably.

What are the negative points about being single?
sometimes u'll feel something is missing out when u see alot of couples around. and ur alone

When single, do you often find yourself longing for companionship?
yea. of course and i think everyone do.

Do you think it's better to look for love or let it find you?
Ha let it find you . i not practically like the kind of 21 century girls who would chase after a guy.

What's the longest relationship you've ever been in?
none.

Do you think couples should spend a very large amount of time together or space things out a tad?
hmm. gd question. i mean they don't have to. it's hard explaining yea~

Have you ever found yourself worrying about commitment?
erm up til now nope.

Have you ever confessed your feelings to a crush?
NO never. unless..

Would you get involved with someone if they were previously married?
No i wont want to be in a love triangle . and neither do i want to break up a marriage

How big of an issue is religion to your compatibility?
no issues?.

In a potential mate, how important is intelligence to you?
i'm not sure. i think we shldn't judgeone by intelligence right.

In a potential mate, how important is a sense of humor to you?
maybe yea for me. cause i'm kinda boring and prob it'll spice my life.

What was your first kiss like?
ehh. u mean with parents? you parents are the ones who took away ur so called first kiss. HA or do u count an indirect contacts lOl

How important are the looks of a mate's face to you?
it doesn't matter how u look. that why i don't make up.

Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren't seriously involved with?
No.

Were you single at the time?
there is no comments.

If you're currently not married, do you foresee yourself ever tying the knot?
I've not even had boifren DUHh

Do you plan on having children someday?
Erm. it getting a lil tooo OVER

Have you ever had an emotional pain so bad it made you sick or physically hurt?
yea. and neither do i want to get out of room nor go anywhere. i just want to be alone that time.
or i'll probably take a stroll .

Have you ever gotten back together with someone after breaking up?
No.

Do you believe there's hope for people after they get back together or don't you?
I believe, why not since everyone deserved a second chance.they learn the mistake they learn that they had to cherish. because things was nv the same again afterall they really like hence ask to get back. HUh

Have you ever broken up with someone and remained friends afterward?
..

Have you ever longed to get back together with someone?
..

most of the questions i'm unable to answer man. it was all about relationship EHh.

;7:31 PM

Saturday, March 29, 2008

WooLalA. time passes damn fast today.
didn't notice the time to end work. DID OT=(
duno whether i'll get paid.

today i'm not eating alone again.
manduck n vivian came shopping and join me for lunch.
though i'm the only one eating.

RICH lar. u all loL eat thai express somemore.

wahh now it's seems like got alot of stuff to buyyy buyy buyyy=x
i'll see you guys ehhh. mr kiddo.=) n my ah di
muahhahha

OOoh tml the 命中注定我爱你 episode 3 is OUT.
i can't wait. super funny lar.
i wonder how it will end.
mus watchhh!~=P

i'm seriously a drama freakk.
OMG i getting hook up by the dramaas.
next up one pound gospel. & binbo danshi=)
WEEe

;10:53 PM

Friday, March 28, 2008

wha LA!~ man. today we had model fitting in store. for a small fashion show tml evening=)
wee i got to see MODELS.
and indeed they are gd looking.
okok i admit not THEY.
is ONE. austrialian look alike model. he got asian face.
the moment he enter the shop. STUNn.
OMG. this person is damn !~

hAha nv seen one person so gd looking b4.
i mean it. seriously
heard from my colleague he appeared in mens magazine.
oh yea of course and not forgetting the ANG MOhs.

whether it's unlucky or lucky.i shldn't care.
no breaks for tml. mean no lunch !~ how to survive.
a hell job.. HELL lol.

finally i'm not eating alone today.
alwin look up for me and waited quite sometime for me to break.
HAHA and =X he was having difficult eating.
jEez i'm EviL. wahah i am.
[thks for toidi josh. crediting" him for saying i'm the scariest woman!.]

at least i've got my gentle side.=P
that u guys nv seen b4 WAHaha.

i'm evill. devil or whatever you call it.

;12:21 AM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

it seems that everyday. is just an ordinary day.
nothing to look forward to.
nth to plan for.

school starts. end of vacation.
results wasn't that gd.
yea at least i did improve=)
a gpa of 2.4 thkx to jason.[ our F lecturer. friendly farni]

and the dmit manager called today.
yes. what is up with him.
giving me hope and crashing them.
and when i'm not thinking about the problems anymore.
he called and say he wants to understand and he will reconsider.
oh yea?! hUH

first it was a straight NO.
ther is nothing to talk. whatever you say is very brief.
you don't know what you want.ETC etc.
and now he calls me and telling me something different.
THK, BUt i hate U.
and did u want to come tell me u would reconsider and crash up all my hope again.
SORRY i'm not gonna pin up any.

and what wrong with the asistant manager.URrgh
i hate my job.

oh talking about work. khim and denise make a visit to my work place.
indeed at least someone to talk to.
ha!~ lucky my super didn't say anything.
chill with them after work. had dinner.
wow . shoe collector cap collector. u name it.

oo not to 4get. becoming jane is a very nice movie.
i think it's base on the true of what happen to the writter jane austen.?
it's a lil bit sad.=( esp at the last part.
watch it yea. enjoy

;1:13 AM

Sunday, March 23, 2008

the 10th YKT

it's a learning journey. and a truly fruitful one.
i've found what i've lost.
i've gain from what i've learn.

everything is just so clear.
from the ki ken tai chi.
you know everyone puts all their effort.
we did our best.
and i've put mine.

though sometimes we may not understand that gd things just don't come so easily.
the team match. indeed i blame myself for not holding.
but i guess it's a lesson learn.

i'm the lucky ones.?
yes. or maybe not~
we just had to train harder. don't we?

gd thing don't come to ppl naturally.
did it or or did it not.
it's an irony~
i guess we have to strive for it.

;1:01 AM

Friday, March 21, 2008

I'm incredibly sick. i had to work no off.
cough fever flu.
i nearly couldnt take it anymore.

i need no doctor.

;1:28 AM

Friday, March 14, 2008

i'm not acadamic incline
i'm not person with great dreams.
i'm not someone who appear to nice.
i'm not.

and then WHat Am I?
i think it doesn't really matter huh

afterall these long long struggle.
i finally set myself free again.

todays shiai. i suck at it.
but after suresh words and what i've been pondering over for so long.
the matter of fact that i think i'll let down my teamates.
yea but what i'm doing now is even worse.
at least now i know i've tried

gab really motivated me to fight.
he appears to be fierce and he will pin point my faults.
not giving me any face.
BUT one gd thing i can fight him wholeheartedly today.
i think because i want to prove myself. prove to me.
and today i really fight all way out at ji keiko
i'm tired out after 3 ppl. damn tiring.
GAB. MK. SURESH.
and Vivian

and YK say he didn't keiko with me b4.
yea right i didn't look for him.
i tot he was scary lol. NAh just kidding.
haha i guess sometime we just have to face it. no matter when.
EEpx =X HAHa

i guess sometime i'm headstrong.
i'm stubborn. and that i've always hanging halfway lost.
and that all the piece of crap. just came from me.
letting go. let nature take it's course.
i think i start.. letting everything go. just do whatever i can.
huh?. yea i guess..

;11:54 PM

everything so confusing.
taking a step at the time. pacing.

the dumb dumb family. haH!
my dad say. stupid daughter got stupid mum.
and then mum marrys a stupid dad.
"thanks ah" nice joke
hey and did we miss out my bros?! yea we did.

hmm my dad gave me a super duper early bdae pressie.
ipod classic.=/ i had a mp3 dUH?!
alright i know how u get it.
hmm i think it's mine first bdae pressie from dad.
other then giving me money to spend or
by buying me a cake and have myself singing a bdae song to myself and eating them up.
yea i'm not so crazy. i'll just eat them all up instead of singing.

last year bdae been a lonely day. manz.
and now that everythings going up and down.
i needa pace myself off ya. take thing one at a time.
Ya riGHt!~ how to start when everything so hectic.

even the job i'm in is completely sickening and an ass.
yes in fact i get along with everyone.
BUT there is always one ppl who like to step on my toes..
i had to even suffer under him
no complain no scolding and no arguing.
yea i'm thinking whether i'm going insane for the minutes.
because at the very least i know i would step out for myself.5
i mean not in the quarrel sense talk thing out. AHHhh~!@#$%~!@#

great i'm half dead already.
dex is going to army tml.
and we are gonna send my lil bro off to tekong.
5 ticx for the family member. my dad mum bro his godfather godmother.
there is not enough ticx for me yAY!~
ya right.~ prob my elder bro wouldn't need to use it.huh?
and what if he does need.?
who cares. i'll get my slumber anyway.
i hardly give a damn care anymore~

i'm getting sick and tired.

i hope i'm just illusionating or whatever u called it.
or do i have a depression. maybe yea.
let me have memory loss.
HEy or just give IMH a ring. get me a room. a dulex one.
that will be even better

;12:22 AM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

i have not know what i've done.
i did not know what i doing.
and i don't know what am i suppose to do.

i just want to leave it as it is until it's over.
BUt it just a disappointment.
i didn't want to disappoint someone who trusted me.
feel i'm good enough.

i'm sorry. i have yet long to go.~
i didn't want to think. because i'm not good enough.
i have no urge to fight.
and i duno how to tell.

and this is where i say. i hope u will noe.

i want no compeition i just want simple.
as it used to be.~

i no longer feel lively. i just want to be alone.
i don't want to work hard for anything anymore.

i just know.. i've lost my will

;12:04 AM

Thursday, March 6, 2008

i need a vacation. a very long one indeed.
i'm planning to go taiwan on my 21st bdae.
thank i'm travelling alone.~

;2:20 PM

everyone say that if only i had. if only i did.
if only.. if only..
everyone think that if only is classify as the saddest word to use..
BUT they didn't know. if only wasn't .

people with my circumstances. my thoughts~
if only wasn't the words that could used to be describe.
have you heard of a chinese idioms called 原地踏步

why i would used that?

It's like struggling to make a choice of your own
and when we thought it was the right one.
it didn't came right.

and then we are back to square one.
looking back of how much time we had wasted
and yes. we are back to original place.

isn't that the saddest words u could used??
that everything u do u try u strive
and eventually
u r still back to square one.

HA. life is it a joke? i'm not too sure.
what lies behind the peaceful world?
we'll nv know.

;2:01 PM